Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Consistantly inconsistant........

Weigh in Week 2

234.00 loss of 0.2

Are you kidding me??? Seriously? What the hell! Only .2 pounds…


I know a loss is a loss. But at this rate it’s going to take me 3 ½ years to get to my first goal. Seeing that this morning really makes me hate myself. I’ve been trying so hard to stay positive. I want to cry but I can’t. I’m not giving up. I’m going to stick with it.

I feel humiliated and embarrassed. I feel like a disgusting whale. I am completely depressed. What did I do wrong? The only thing I can think of is I did little cheats here and there. Nothing major, but a taste while cooking for my son and husband, licking the spoon after making them dessert, a slice of bread over the weekend…


I guess I was feeling a little cocky after the first week’s big number. I am going to start getting on the scale every day again. I know that seems obsessive, but I would rather catch a creep-up immediately so I know what might have caused it.

I have no patience for this bull pucky. I want to be thin NOW darn it!



  1. Argh, indeed.

    I had a VERY similar week. Worked out like mad, but made stupid little food mistakes and now I've got only a .2 loss. Total bull.

    We'll do better next week. :-)

  2. I think weighing every day for you may be good because you're right, you can kind of keep yourself "in check". But I wouldn't make it "official" until once a week. That way you give your body time to adjust and you can track easier. Just keep going, you WILL see results!

  3. I agree with Nicole on weighing yourself daily. You can also reflect on the day before. Did you eat to much sodium? Were your portions off? What type of food were you eating...etc etc! You can do this! Don't hate yourself! You need to love yourself through this. It's harder to build yourself up when you are the first person to tear yourself down!!

    Keep it up!! I am cheering you on :)